Mona Mehas

For the first time, I'm typing directly into this body instead of making a document first. It's 4:19 am on Thursday morning, officially Leap Day. I can't seem to regulate my sleep anymore. If I went to bed when I started to get sleepy I'd be up about this time of day or earlier. Knowing that, I push myself to stay awake and this happens. Now my body is fighting because I am sleepy but it's morning. I don't know if I want to go to bed or not. I have clean laundry on my bed that I'd have to put away first. That would add another half hour. 

Meanwhile, my publisher emailed me and my first chapbook will officially be out in the world tomorrow, March 1, 2024. 'Questions I Didn't Know I'd Asked' is poetry inspired by tarot and oracle. My small independent publisher in Australia is sending me 3 free copies. I'm getting 10 more at deep discount. I hope to sell a few.

They are $12 to purchase. Make sure you buy at least one!

February has gone gone fast but it contained some sadness. My cat, Thunder, crossed over on Valentine'd Day. He would have been 18 years old May 1. He'd had a heart murmer for years and the vet said he developed heart failure. One shot was all it took and he crossed in my arms. I was grateful the event went much smoother than Esse's crossing last April but Thunder won't rest with my other pets in a pet cemetery. My new vet sends the animal's ashes a to place they own and spreads them over a field. There's nothing to go visit.

Though I'm glad to be rid of the litter box, I miss Thunder.

My dog, Jose, is getting much cuddlier. He's not making any progress on the car phobia. It hasn't been warm enough to spend time at or in my car trying to bribe him to get inside. I hope he gets over this fear soon.

It's going on 5 am and I'm starting to doze off. I think I'll post this and go to bed.

Is it age or sinuses or pain or a combination of all these things that makes sleep so difficult? I might get 5 hours of sleep a night if I'm lucky. Last night I fell asleep sitting up before 11 pm. I sleep-texted an ad I found on Facebook to my daughter. I know this because I woke when I almost dropped my phone. After I told her why she received that weird text from me, I went to bed. Of course, I was awake by 3:30 am. Back pain and sinuses won't allow me the luxury of lounging so after dozing for about an hour, here I am. 

I'm attempting to write in this space more often. My friend says she reads other people's blogs and she used to keep one. The key is consistency, she says. I'll try to write every week but I'm sure no one wants to read about my sleep issues all the time. Between now and next Monday at 5:30 am, I'll come up with a few ideas.

Thanks for reading.